I used to have a livejournal a few years back but I don't remember the name. But I decided it'd be fun to start writing in one again. Writing is the easiest way for me to express my feelings, other than doing photography.
And lately, I haven't been feeling like doing much of anything. I try to hang out with people, I try to stay hopeful that Joey will take me back at some point, it's just so hard. I know I have God, I know He loves me and I'm trying so hard to keep in mind that life does go on.. but it's difficult to lose your best friend and not really know how to cope or deal with it. I keep texting him, asking what he's doing, who he's with, when we're hanging out next. I know, not the exact way to get someone back, but I'm hopeless and in love. Everything that was in my life had to do with him. All the places I like to hang out, thats where we used to go. We spent the most time in my room, which is why I only go in there when I'm sleeping. If I'm in there just reading or writing, I can't sit more than five minutes without crying or looking at all the pictures I have posted up of us and the memories we shared for a year and a half. Everything was him, and us, and .. everything we shared. How do I just let that go? I'm not going to, I'm really going to try and hold on. I'm going to do everthing in my power to keep what we have alive. What kind of person would I be if I didn't?
I love you. I'm not giving up hope.
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